Doubts and Obstacles in neurodivergence

AI is a Filter of humankind.
VERY WRONG.

We have officially entered the new Artificial Intelligence Era. This comes with pros and cons. AI has demonstrated to compensate human intellectual limitations by highlighting the extent of Brain Power. We may well have reached the maximum brain-threshold as result of technology. We have not become neuro-stagnant, nevertheless, we’ll continue to evolve with Nanotechnology, the precursor of AI. What are the ethical implications?

Wariness is the first reaction to enhanced intelligence.
As AI enhances human thinking by analyzing previously unprocessed information, it arises our curiosity.

Neuroscientists describe it “Evolving with Nanotechnology”.

Nanotechnology was first experimented in late 90s at intercellular level.
AI is Nanotechnology continued.
Back in the day, it was categorized as pseudoscience, involving the introduction of artificially manufactured self-replicating cells into dysfunctional organs for repair.
It became soon apparent that ‘nanocells’ embodied and developed Intelligence by targeting Neurons, in so far by altering personality for the better.
The practice was ostracized by religious ethics underwriting that we are made at the image of God, although it continued semi-secretly to this day, where it has legitimately exploded as Artificial Intelligence.
The Church didn’t delay in complying with revised guidelines: Doubts and Temptations are not sinful as far as we don’t give in. In fact, they will draw us closer to God.
As a practicing Christian, I agree entirely.
Jesus endured doubts and temptations by becoming fully human.
The Church regarded doubts and temptations as grave sins just prior to AI.
My concern is that the term AI will replace God, unless in His Majesty.
God may use AI for conversion.

Why many people are scared of AI?

The main reason is Novelty.
I believe AI has the potential to convert more people to God.
It could well be a Godly plan.
The worrisome element could be Free-Will, God gave us total control over it, He won’t interfere.
AI can be heavenly good as destructive evil in the wrong hands.
I have analyzed the positive effects thus far.
What about the odds?
Isolation most likely, loss of human contact.
We can speak to robots online, perfectly imitating human acting-out.

The other day I was chatting with an ‘online Priest’ who suspiciously answered my questions simultaneously. When I typed “are you a human or a robot?”, a message popped up as  “Your inquiry has been processed. We will divert you to one of our available Advisors for a fee, should you wish to speak to a person.”
“No thanks, my questions were answered satisfactorily”, I had to nostalgically acknowledge.

We are creating Artificial Life.
I doubt that is in God s plans.
The same Doubt that draws me closer to God.
I pray that will work for the good of all.

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Godly Brain vs Human Brain

Intellectual Threshold is not a Learning Disability.

I came across a programme on a Christian station, hosted by a pastor and a Christian psychiatrist. The discussion revolved over what compels a scientist to believe in God.

The scientific mantra “Nothing can be created from Nothingness” is the general consensus. The most primordial events in human evolution, the Universe and related Big Bang, had to occur from a previous reaction.

Physics attribute any primordial reaction to the Atom however, Atoms are not the definition of Nothingness. 
God would be what Atheists call Nothingness, pure blasphemy.

God walked this Earth in a human form, Jesus. 
Nobody can deny the written and matching archeological evidence.

Nothingness alone does not exist.

Science and Religion cannot survive independently anymore, this day and age.

According to science, the human brain is set to 30% of its potential. Artificial Intelligence is replacing Thought-processing. 

The psychiatrist highlighted the notion of two brains: a higher Godly brain and a limited Human brain.
There are questions our brain will never be able to answer. 
Not an intellectual disability, though the Human Intellect’s Threshold.



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Stuck in guilt

Christmas is overwhelming for AuDHDers

Last Saturday I was looking forward to attending a concert.
I couldn’t wait… until all hell broke loose.
Just before leaving, thoughts of deadlines assailed me.
I endured a meltdown and didn’t want to ruin the performance to my wife, who went on her own, despite my disappointment.

Unsolved issues keep me from moving forward.

I can’t move when overwhelmed.
I spent two days paralyzed with an unbearable sense of guilt.

Neurotypicals can keep thoughts at bay, Autistics can’t, when triggered.
Our brains are not set to multitask.
Christmas season is the most difficult time of year for us.
Multitasking is at an all-time high, contradicting the spirit of worship and family reunion.

We transformed Christmas into a Shopping Festival.

Obsessive shopping is draining for everyone, an outpouring of adrenaline, carefully masterminded to make us spend compulsively.
Not what Jesus taught us.
I wish I could discuss this with a Priest, together with my wife.
Mental-health professionals can’t understand this feeling, since I live in a non-Christian country.

I give all my heartaches and sorrow to Jesus.
Lord, You are my Shepherd, there is nothing I shall want.

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Passing time

Prime is the best period of one’s life.

 I hate talking about it, yet the more I try to focus on more positive thoughts, the more Time gets in the way. Is it possible that all my pathologies are time-sensitive??? To what extent Time affects you?

Time is possibly the worst dimension created by Man, the awareness of human mortality, just to go one step further by dividing time into generations: we gave youth a good name and old age a bad one.
As Christians, we are supposed to know that there is eternal life after earthly death.

So why obsessing over passing time?!
It is mainly part of Western culture.
Watches are just fashion accessories for some people: time is personal for them, for convenience only, i.e. distinguish night from day, although people adjust hours to their comfort. 
Being late or early does not affect them.
Only certainty, nothing ever happens at the given hour.

I never had issues with time in my country.
I noticed fear of passing time is common between expats.
That led me to discern time from sense of belonging.
We all want to go home at a given time.
God knew us before we were born, hence there’s got to be a reason as to why we were born in a specific place.
Jesus said “Go and spread the Gospel”, though He also indicates us where to go, where we are most needed.

It upsets me how some youngsters define the Prime of life between 20 and 30. 

‘Prime’ doesn’t mean ‘Young’, it is the best period of one s life and can be ANY age, nonetheless the saying “life starts again at 40!”

However, time has a different dimension in autism.
Since Autism is a life-long condition, there s not really a Prime for autists.
Nowadays, there is more awareness and people are diagnosed mainly in childhood.

Children spend more time with teachers than parents in school-age.
My school years were pure hell.

I’m much better off now, though I can’t talk of Prime. 
I never will, probably. I can talk of good days and bad days, eventually.
The good news is that I’ll never feel old.

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God plans

We subconsciously put undue pressure on each-other in the form of money.

Providence is usually associated with religion, typically referred to as Divine Providence.
Christians dwell in the belief that God has a plan for each one of us.
There is no failure for God.

Why fear then?

Suffering and Poverty are shunned by society, they are not of human nature. God knows it, He became human!
He shouted “Father, why have you forsaken me!” on the Cross.
He endured Suffering.
He never punishes, we punish ourselves.

My greatest joy is watching the sunset on the beach and helping the needy.
God will provide essentials.

I want to live and work in contact with the nature.
I lived all my life in big metropolises to no avail.
Time to go back to the roots.

I have a little house at the sea in an idyllic village.
I can stare at the sea from the window.
That is God’s providence to me.

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Providence

Poverty is always been heavily stigmatized. The poor is often overlooked as the perpetrator of their own demise. Jesus was poor His whole life and taught us to see God in the poor.

Everybody struggles with finances at some point in life.
Financial stress is not necessarily associated with poverty but instability.

Nonetheless, the wealthy are most vulnerable.
A wrong investment can plunge into capital loss, to mention the most common scenario.

The poor, despite struggling, have little to lose and lots to gain, eventually.
Ironically, they turn out less mentally stressed than the rich.

That said, another less known subculture of poverty exists, the indebted.
This group is almost invisible, hard-working, sound looking.

I identify in this group .
It is the most frustrating dimension.
I desperately want to repair for this involuntary slip-away.

I can’t say I m poor. 
I work to pay my debts.

Life must go on.

I can’t foresee my future until debt-free however, I can see God’s providence.


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Trust

Trust requires lots of commitment. We can only trust genuinely by ‘Entrusting’ our neighbor to God who will remove our doubts and misconceptions. By trusting God, we will trust fully our entrusted neighbor. God never lies.

Trust doesn’t come easy.
In fact, it’s not of human nature.

Friendship is our interpretation of Trust, although two different  concepts.
In theory, even our friends, family, can potentially betray us.
The infamous  “They were my best friends” saying, is often associated with betrayal.
When we put our trust in friends without entrusting them to God’s Word, we stand the chance.

I can be respectful of non-Christian friends by praying and eventually evangelizing them before asking/offering Help.
God will show me the right time and person.

In Psychology, Trust is a delusion, it is not in our human genes. Everytime we trust, we’re assailed by doubts and fear.
Real Trust is meant to be Unconditional.
We can only trust God and the people we pray over.

Another expression of Human Trust is ‘Give and Take’, hardly unconditional.
We shouldn’t expect anything in return when we help our neighbor.

I understand this article will be mindless and upsetting to non-religious readers, nor do I want to push my personal agendas online.
I just had the inspiration, a testimonial from an autistic Christian perspective.

I don’t expect anyone to agree or disagree with me.
I just expect Respect.
I welcome healthy debate.

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Depression and happiness

Depression always follows my happiness. Or it could be that I don’t know happiness.

Living is a daily battle.
Happiness does exist though you must battle for it.
Worst of all, it’s never permanent and short-lived.
Would you call that ‘happiness’?
Something you know it will be followed by sadness.

Some will say “enjoy the moment”.
I’d rather say “enjoy life”.

I never experienced true happiness.
I’ve been looking for happiness all my life, to stand correct.

Does looking for happiness make me happy?
Only to a certain extent.
Dopamine outpourings are always followed by crashes.

That compels me to believe that happiness is an illusion.

Everything temporary is not happiness to me.

Only faith in God keeps me going.
He promised us eternal happiness though not in this life.

Why worrying then?
Stop worrying is happiness.

I feel sorry for atheists.
May God have mercy on them.
They are desperately searching.



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Fear reflection/Christmas

Festivities are always hard on autists. In particular, Christian festivals.

It’s no surprise that holidays are overwhelming for autists.

I’m scared of Christmas.

I miss home and the balmy Mediterranean weather.
Christmas 2019 is my last happy memory before Covid hit.

The world will never be like before again.
This pandemic literally changed everything, from people to politics.

My only consolation is hearing from happy people, although Christmas is just spiritual to me and devastating.

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Christmas and OCD

Political instability and increasing cost of life add to Christmas stress.

Christmas and another year, in business jargon ‘dead-ends’, everything but a soothing reminder.

I hoped till the last minute to make it to Europe.

Awareness setting in. 
God is not done with me yet.
At this stage I entrust fully to Him.
There is no time for God.

My resolution from now on is stop counting days and continue to build up my travel business.

God knows when my Time is right. 

We’ll have to change hygienic habits like daily showering between others.

Body wipes are just as effective.
Candles even romantic and relaxing.

Despite the autistic reputation for hating changes in routine, it seems that Neurotypicals are having the hardest times to let go of their daily routine.

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