Depression and happiness

Depression always follows my happiness. Or it could be that I don’t know happiness.

Living is a daily battle.
Happiness does exist though you must battle for it.
Worst of all, it’s never permanent and short-lived.
Would you call that ‘happiness’?
Something you know it will be followed by sadness.

Some will say “enjoy the moment”.
I’d rather say “enjoy life”.

I never experienced true happiness.
I’ve been looking for happiness all my life, to stand correct.

Does looking for happiness make me happy?
Only to a certain extent.
Dopamine outpourings are always followed by crashes.

That compels me to believe that happiness is an illusion.

Everything temporary is not happiness to me.

Only faith in God keeps me going.
He promised us eternal happiness though not in this life.

Why worrying then?
Stop worrying is happiness.

I feel sorry for atheists.
May God have mercy on them.
They are desperately searching.