Tag Archive for: David Bowie

Numbing pain

Numbness is as comfortable as addictive.

Comfortably Numb / Pink Floyd

As I was discussing music as therapy and David Bowie as my favourite artist, I couldn’t dismiss the track’ subject, co-sung with David Gilmoure.
The title ‘Comfortably Numb’ says it all, fully straightforward with little left to imagination.
Quite a rarity for songs, normally written purposefully for free interpretation.
It’s black and white only here, Comfort and Numbness: when we are numb, we are comfortable.
A psychosomatic state, not to be confused with physical paralysis.
In medicine, Numbness is the loss of sensation associated with pain. Doctors use anesthesia to make us numb and comfortable.
When we are numb, we don’t feel any pain.

Music therapy is recognized by the psychiatric profession.

This song is healing.
Numbness is also emotional.
The sad part is David Bowie’s passing.
Sometimes, I question myself if it s right to ‘communicate’ with the dead.
Certainly not, from a religious perspective.
Nonetheless, the track lifts me up, despite stealing me tears every time.


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Spiritual Awakening

I resort to poetry and music when pain is too intense to describe.

‘My Death’, David Bowie. Personified 

♬

My death waits like a Bible truth,
at the funeral of my youth.
So confident, I go His way.

Let’s not think about,
the passing time!

Angel or Devil, 
I don’t care,
for behind that door, 
there is…You!

♬

Pain is never permanent. Our time will come when appropriate. Never stop hoping.

My homeland, my desire.

Our time will come.

Man does not need to see everything.

If only we could stop time.

One door closes, another opens.

It is all in God s hands.

Why worry?

Living physically in one place and spiritually in another is my Cross.

He stands on that Cross.

There’s nothing I shall want.

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Reaching-out

I further explore the benefits of music and faith in this article, through a real-life experience.

Reach-out for Help.

Today I received this call for Help.
Could it be Divine Intervention?
I felt God’s presence guiding me through the entire conversation.
It was a very rewarding day!
I had the opportunity to save a suicidal friend who reached out to me.

I’m not an hotline operator nor a psychologist and under no circumstances I intend to give any kind of professional advice.
Suicide is a serious condition requiring professional intervention.
Only when the suicidal person reaches out to us, it means they put all trust in our listening skills, therefore we must try our best.

Nowadays, people think stilted speech is synonym of high IQ…
Quite the contrary, simple speech in addressing complex subjects is.

Trust, Identification, Music.

I first LISTENED, then IDENTIFIED with him.
Once I gained his TRUST, I sent him music videos of my favourite artist David Bowie which worked magics.
He bursted in tears and thanked me profusely after the tracks.
The aftermath is confidential.

Music therapy and Self-regulation in ADHD.

It is scientifically proven the therapeutic potential of music in activating dormant or misplaced brain circuits.
Also, it has been recently demonstrated the dopaminergic nature of music, dopamine in notes, literally: Music plays the role of Self-regulation between Emotional, Cognitive, Behavioral functions, the 3 properties of Dopamine. 
For this purpose, Music earned itself the medical definition of Catalyst.
As studies continue, we may be up to a blowing breakthrough, anytime soon.

I can’t live without music. 

I’ll keep a close eye on latest research and won’t delay to report new findings.




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Timeless dreaming

Music is having a major breakthrough in Emotional Regulation.

What does the lyric ♫ Your guilt for dreaming ♫ mean to you?

I shall point out that it s from a famous David Bowie’ song entitled Time.
As most of you know, Bowie is my inspiration, role-model and Godsend.
He wrote a song for each state of mind of mine.
“Your guilt for dreaming” means a whole lot to me.
Bowie believed that dreaming is not delusional.
Every achievement starts with a dream.
I often feel guilty of dreaming because I couldn’t realize my dreams, either joining the Military or studying Psychiatry.
I take pride in my job, nevertheless.
The track reminds that dreams have no Time.

Sorrow vs Guilt.

Autistics tend to feel guilty, even if it’s not their fault.
I often mix sorrow with guilt.
That exacerbates badly my ADHD with conflicting emotions.
Music is all I have left when nothing else matters.

Happy Heavenly Birthday, Starman!

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Have you ever been uncared for?

Is your sense of belonging linked to your generation? Do you identify with your generation? What do you regret or praise your generation for? Did age stop you from achieving your goals?

The more I hear about disabilities, the more I wish I was born 20 years later.

I was struck this morning to hear that McDonald UK started hiring autistics over 50.
How many things I could have achieved with the proper care.

Generations are becoming interchangeable. 

We see it in music, 80/90s bands are having a revival.
90s kids invented current techno-beat.

20 extra years, that’s all I need.

David Bowie sang in the 90s:

♬ I’ve got Seven days to live my life and Seven days to die… ♬

Today, he would replace Seven Days with Twenty Years, I bet.

Only deadlines are not changeable. 

The term alone is over-explicit. 
I’m scared of deadlines, we have no control over them.

I was shocked by the recent deaths of Lisa Marie Presley, Sinead O’ Connor, both in their 50s, and Tina Turner, 82.
Their deadline was Conversion to Christ. They didn’t make it.

Lisa Marie, only daughter of rock-legend Elvis Presley, continued her parents’ legacy as an active member of the Church of Scientology. She was in a 4 years marriage with Jehovah’s Witness’ Michael Jackson, to add insult to injury.
The Church of Scientology, Jehovah’s Witnesses, 7th Day Adventists, Mormons, are not recognized by the International Christian Council.

Sinead O’ Connor and Tina Turner downplayed their devout Christian tradition: the former for Islam, the latter for Buddhism.

I don’t have the authority to judge, nonetheless.

I may discern that Lisa and Michael were deceived by their parents.

Tina and Sinead left Christianity on their own accord.

However, Judgement is exclusive to Jesus, we are entitled to Discernment only.

I am confident in discerning that David Bowie ultimately found Jesus.

My deadline is going to the home of the Lord, anytime.







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Promising-perspectives vs Dream-perspectives in ASD/ADHD

Following up the implications of mid-life in youth society.

Promises and Dreams are very interchangeable.
I endorse to turn dreams into self-promises.

The dreaming effect is only temporary.
Dreams have limitations, I don’t like gambling.
I favour self-promises, certainties, loyalty.

A self-promise is a desire.
Desires are real.
Dreams are momentary illusions.
I promised to myself and God to go home in His time.

Where is it written in the Bible that one must be established by 40?
That’s the neurotypical thinking, good for them.

Why not dying at 40 if we accomplish everything by then?
What’s the point of living to 90-100 as wrecks?
Yes, you heard me right, Wrecks.
That’s what over 40s are for the workforce.

Let’s not say that we extended life.
Over 40s are virtually dead.
Better the Middle Ages, when 40 was the average lifespan.
People didn’t get old and age was seen as wisdom.

I was very disappointed with the radio comments of a pastor about age, saying that we must get old at 50 and prepare for death.

We must always be prepared for death, but not strive to get old.
We must strive to keep young and fit at any age.
Even in the Bible there are references to fitness:
“Stay awake, cause you don’t know the time and hour He is coming!
And wash your face often when you look tired!”

I always feel emotionally young, as result of having been deprived of my biological youth.
I want to outlive my youth now.
Your personality defines age, not your wrinkles, and they will be my most beautiful years.

“Ageing is an extraordinary process where you become what you should always have been.”/ David Bowie 

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Exploitation films and dedicated fanbases in Autism/ Christiane F.

Autistics have a hard time moving on. We are often stuck in time.

Fixations are common for autistics .

Everybody has a song, a film, a concert, that marked their life however, it is easier for neurotypicals to move on, whereas autistics tend to get stuck to the first impacting event in their life.

My ‘fixation’ is British singer and actor David Bowie.

I grew up in the 80/90s with him and he s still considered the most influential glam-rock artist of all times 9 years from his passing.

Many contemporary artists carry on his legacy still, I can’t enjoy them.
I call that fixation, ‘paranoia’ in medical.

Is paranoia an illness or a passion?
Are Elitarian Aspies-ASDs ndr- autistic or not?
Aspies have a specific fixation.
In my opinion, they are not autistic.

My belief is supported by the scientific community that encourages the discontinuation of the ‘high/low functioning Autism’ definitions.
Latest research is headed towards Autism and ASD as two unrelated disorders.

But back to the article s topic: Cult movies.

I adore to death the 1981 film ‘Christiane F.’
Needless to say, David Bowie is featured in the movie.
I can watch it endlessly.
All my emotions are re-lived in that true story: a denied youth, desolation…
I don’t praise the destructive behavior of the characters involved in heavy drugs but the strong sense of camaraderie.

A movie, a song, can catch one’s momentum.
I identified in that movie.
Nothing wrong with it as far as you can move on.

I’m trapped in my past.
And I can’t get out.


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Change and Transition

♬Maybe I was born right out of my time♬
David Bowie

Appointments drain me.

We usually associate appointments with health professionals.
In the post-Covid era would look like everything is by appointment.
In this country, you must book major retailers, Churches, virtually every venue requiring rehearsal.

Last night I’ve been dining out for the first time in 4 years, just to find a table-keyboard to place the order and a robot to deliver plates.
No human interaction. It was depressing. I even lost taste for the otherwise good quality food, complicit my psych s appointment.
Heaven’s sake, he looked better than the ugly serving machine!

I don’t think I’ll ever adapt to this new lifestyle.
I’m scared.
One more reason to undergo ECT and borne a child again.
Cosmetology will take care of extra wrinkles.

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Thinking Errors

Our society judges us by age.

We are expected to be settled by 40. That is extremely unreasonable, since there is an increasing number of people getting married at 40/50, these days, willing to start a second life. We’re still living in post-WWII Baby-boomers culture of Elton John and Mick Jagger, great artists nevertheless.

I feel trapped and hopeless.

What’s the point of living past 40?
Our society is built upon the youth, unfairly so, since everybody ages.

We are all to blame, we don’t think about aging in our twenties.

Youth is short-lived and unrealistic.
Old age is real and permanent until death, even more so in this day and age where 90 seems to be the norm.
If we define 40 as the beginning of old age, it accounts for an additional fifty years, the longest time-frame compared to a mere thirty years of youth, yet we don’t invest in a productive Senior age.

Nonetheless, Young is not necessarily synonym of happiness…my twenties were my darkest days.

I want to live my twenties now.

David Bowie quoted: “Aging is an extraordinary process where you become what you should always have been.”

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Revival

Is your sense of belonging linked to your generation?

Do you identify with your generation?
What do you regret or praise your generation for?
Did age stop you from achieving your goals?

The more I hear about disabilities, the more I wish I was born 20 years later.
Mental awareness at school and workplace was never acknowledged before the 90s.

I was struck this morning to hear that Mc Donald UK started hiring autistics over 50.

The 50s are the new 30s!
Also, there s an increasing number of working 90 yos!

My vision of the future is that State Pensions will disappear.

Generations are becoming interchangeable, we see it in music, 80/90s bands are having a revival.
90s kids invented techno-beat.

20 extra years, that’s all I need.

David Bowie sang in the 90s:
♬I’ve got Seven days
to live my life 
and Seven days to die…♬

Today he would replace Seven Days with Twenty Years.


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