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Have you ever been uncared for?

Is your sense of belonging linked to your generation? Do you identify with your generation? What do you regret or praise your generation for? Did age stop you from achieving your goals?

The more I hear about disabilities, the more I wish I was born 20 years later.

I was struck this morning to hear that McDonald UK started hiring autistics over 50.
How many things I could have achieved with the proper care.

Generations are becoming interchangeable. 

We see it in music, 80/90s bands are having a revival.
90s kids invented current techno-beat.

20 extra years, that’s all I need.

David Bowie sang in the 90s:

♬ I’ve got Seven days to live my life and Seven days to die… ♬

Today, he would replace Seven Days with Twenty Years, I bet.

Only deadlines are not changeable. 

The term alone is over-explicit. 
I’m scared of deadlines, we have no control over them.

I was shocked by the recent deaths of Lisa Marie Presley, Sinead O’ Connor, both in their 50s, and Tina Turner, 82.
Their deadline was Conversion to Christ. They didn’t make it.

Lisa Marie, only daughter of rock-legend Elvis Presley, continued her parents’ legacy as an active member of the Church of Scientology. She was in a 4 years marriage with Jehovah’s Witness’ Michael Jackson, to add insult to injury.
The Church of Scientology, Jehovah’s Witnesses, 7th Day Adventists, Mormons, are not recognized by the International Christian Council.

Sinead O’ Connor and Tina Turner downplayed their devout Christian tradition: the former for Islam, the latter for Buddhism.

I don’t have the authority to judge, nonetheless.

I may discern that Lisa and Michael were deceived by their parents.

Tina and Sinead left Christianity on their own accord.

However, Judgement is exclusive to Jesus, we are entitled to Discernment only.

I am confident in discerning that David Bowie ultimately found Jesus.

My deadline is going to the home of the Lord, anytime.







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Promising-perspectives vs Dream-perspectives in ASD/ADHD

Following up the implications of mid-life in youth society.

Promises and Dreams are very interchangeable.
I endorse to turn dreams into self-promises.

The dreaming effect is only temporary.
Dreams have limitations, I don’t like gambling.
I favour self-promises, certainties, loyalty.

A self-promise is a desire.
Desires are real.
Dreams are momentary illusions.
I promised to myself and God to go home in His time.

Where is it written in the Bible that one must be established by 40?
That’s the neurotypical thinking, good for them.

Why not dying at 40 if we accomplish everything by then?
What’s the point of living to 90-100 as wrecks?
Yes, you heard me right, Wrecks.
That’s what over 40s are for the workforce.

Let’s not say that we extended life.
Over 40s are virtually dead.
Better the Middle Ages, when 40 was the average lifespan.
People didn’t get old and age was seen as wisdom.

I was very disappointed with the radio comments of a pastor about age, saying that we must get old at 50 and prepare for death.

We must always be prepared for death, but not strive to get old.
We must strive to keep young and fit at any age.
Even in the Bible there are references to fitness:
“Stay awake, cause you don’t know the time and hour He is coming!
And wash your face often when you look tired!”

I always feel emotionally young, as result of having been deprived of my biological youth.
I want to outlive my youth now.
Your personality defines age, not your wrinkles, and they will be my most beautiful years.

“Ageing is an extraordinary process where you become what you should always have been.”/ David Bowie 

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Exploitation films and dedicated fanbases in Autism/ Christiane F.

Autistics have a hard time moving on. We are often stuck in time.

Fixations are common for autistics .

Everybody has a song, a film, a concert, that marked their life however, it is easier for neurotypicals to move on, whereas autistics tend to get stuck to the first impacting event in their life.

My ‘fixation’ is British singer and actor David Bowie.

I grew up in the 80/90s with him and he s still considered the most influential glam-rock artist of all times 9 years from his passing.

Many contemporary artists carry on his legacy still, I can’t enjoy them.
I call that fixation, ‘paranoia’ in medical.

Is paranoia an illness or a passion?
Are Elitarian Aspies-ASDs ndr- autistic or not?
Aspies have a specific fixation.
In my opinion, they are not autistic.

My belief is supported by the scientific community that encourages the discontinuation of the ‘high/low functioning Autism’ definitions.
Latest research is headed towards Autism and ASD as two unrelated disorders.

But back to the article s topic: Cult movies.

I adore to death the 1981 film ‘Christiane F.’
Needless to say, David Bowie is featured in the movie.
I can watch it endlessly.
All my emotions are re-lived in that true story: a denied youth, desolation…
I don’t praise the destructive behavior of the characters involved in heavy drugs but the strong sense of camaraderie.

A movie, a song, can catch one’s momentum.
I identified in that movie.
Nothing wrong with it as far as you can move on.

I’m trapped in my past.
And I can’t get out.


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Change and Transition

♬Maybe I was born right out of my time♬
David Bowie

Appointments drain me.

We usually associate appointments with health professionals.
In the post-Covid era would look like everything is by appointment.
In this country, you must book major retailers, Churches, virtually every venue requiring rehearsal.

Last night I’ve been dining out for the first time in 4 years, just to find a table-keyboard to place the order and a robot to deliver plates.
No human interaction. It was depressing. I even lost taste for the otherwise good quality food, complicit my psych s appointment.
Heaven’s sake, he looked better than the ugly serving machine!

I don’t think I’ll ever adapt to this new lifestyle.
I’m scared.
One more reason to undergo ECT and borne a child again.
Cosmetology will take care of extra wrinkles.

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Thinking Errors

Our society judges us by age.

We are expected to be settled by 40. That is extremely unreasonable, since there is an increasing number of people getting married at 40/50, these days, willing to start a second life. We’re still living in post-WWII Baby-boomers culture of Elton John and Mick Jagger, great artists nevertheless.

I feel trapped and hopeless.

What’s the point of living past 40?
Our society is built upon the youth, unfairly so, since everybody ages.

We are all to blame, we don’t think about aging in our twenties.

Youth is short-lived and unrealistic.
Old age is real and permanent until death, even more so in this day and age where 90 seems to be the norm.
If we define 40 as the beginning of old age, it accounts for an additional fifty years, the longest time-frame compared to a mere thirty years of youth, yet we don’t invest in a productive Senior age.

Nonetheless, Young is not necessarily synonym of happiness…my twenties were my darkest days.

I want to live my twenties now.

David Bowie quoted: “Aging is an extraordinary process where you become what you should always have been.”

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Revival

Is your sense of belonging linked to your generation?

Do you identify with your generation?
What do you regret or praise your generation for?
Did age stop you from achieving your goals?

The more I hear about disabilities, the more I wish I was born 20 years later.
Mental awareness at school and workplace was never acknowledged before the 90s.

I was struck this morning to hear that Mc Donald UK started hiring autistics over 50.

The 50s are the new 30s!
Also, there s an increasing number of working 90 yos!

My vision of the future is that State Pensions will disappear.

Generations are becoming interchangeable, we see it in music, 80/90s bands are having a revival.
90s kids invented techno-beat.

20 extra years, that’s all I need.

David Bowie sang in the 90s:
♬I’ve got Seven days
to live my life 
and Seven days to die…♬

Today he would replace Seven Days with Twenty Years.


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Stuck in time

Benefits of music in Brain-Rewiring.

Music is one of the main markers of time.
We all have a special song in our heart associated with the happiest time of our life.

I thought to myself, a beautiful memory, until I was challenged by a musical programme hosted by a middle-aged musician.

I was very touched, since my music-idol, David Bowie, happens to have died in 2016 with my heart s tracks.

Needless to say, music is my medicine.

The radio guest commented that music is in constant evolution and we must evolve either with dead or active musicians.
Fans tend to identify with an artist and are unable to rewire their brain musically.
It is scientifically proven that music can wire up neuronal circuits.

That has dramatic consequences on the music industry and the consumers:
older generations don’t listen to new bands, in turn, new bands have a hard time building base-listenership with teenagers.

I hear all the time from the middle-aged that today s music means nothing to them.
I put myself in between by acknowledging the painful generational divisions.

That said, what is the solution?
Social Interaction.

We didn’t have these generational issues before the social media bubble.
In the 80/90 s we met people by chance in the parks, pubs… we didn’t care about age but sharing, last but not least, music.

I’ll never forget a vibrant 70 years old Beatles crazy I befriended in London Hyde Park in my 20s! He would tell me about the 60’s and I would enlighten him on Bowie.
Guess what: I developed an interest in 60’ society and he started listening to Bowie.

Those were the days!

Media are destroying us.
We re just starting to understand it.
About time.

R. I.P. Jim

I wish I was Jim in 30 years in England talking about Bowie to young people in the park whilst learning about new bands.

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Perfectionism in neurodiversity

Perfection is not humanly designed. Perfectionism is a Mental Disorder underlying other conditions, most commonly ADHD and OCD. The healthy definition of Perfectionism is “Doing the best of your ability.”

Perfectionism is a Delusion.
The human brain is not set to Perfection.
In neurotypicals, the pseudonym “perfect!” refers to “well done!”
“Well done” doesn’t mean “perfect”, it means “good job”.
“Perfect” is just a misused, lazy term.

Unfortunately, the neurodivergent take Perfection to the letter with due consequences: since humans will never achieve perfection, the struggle is real and time consuming. The quest for imaginary perfection takes its toll on Timing. 
This pattern translates Perfection to Failure.

Our society is timely. Everything happens in a Time-setting.
We can’t stop Time because we are mortals.
We can only virtually stop Age as in a  ‘time setting’, “Age is a number…”, a personal attribute, some people feel 85 at 65, others feel 20 at 65…
I feel 30 at 50, nonetheless.

Time and Age are not the same concept: Age is the Result of time, Time is the natural cycle of the planets and depending stars, what astronomers call Orbits. Technically, Time started with the Big Bang for humankind, although latest evidence suggests the existence of a pre-Universe. Anyway, let’s not get into astronomy, knowing that the Earth is 3 billions years old and the Sun has sufficient energy for the next million years, is what matters to humankind.

We can’t sacrifice time for perfection.
Knowing our abilities will keep us on time by giving our best either at work or study. Giving the best will always account for ‘Good Job’ !
Every good educator or boss will acknowledge one’s best effort regardless the score, unlike 30 years ago when only the grades counted, sadly.

I’m not saying that scores don’t count, nowadays, what I mean is that low scores generated by best practices can be implemented, they are never a failure.

One of the greatest visionary musicians of the last 50 years, David Bowie, used to rehearse one time only, no matter what, Perfection was composing a song within 3 days for him, and all his music was a success despite “not perfect”, in his own words. He was no genius, he knew his limits and abilities.

With that quote, I’ll conclude that Time is Perfection in human nature.
Don’t be late…


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Reminiscences

Reminiscences are afterthoughts of memories. In most cases they are of traumatic origin.

Reminiscences are deep memories that leave a mark, either good or bad.

Memories come and go at any time.

Reminiscences are mostly common from mid-life and stored permanently.
That explains why the elderly better recall the past vs the present.

Another way to look at it, is seeing reminiscences as an afterthought of memories.

It’s virtually unlikely having reminiscences in our teens, those would account for trauma.

Trauma must be treated accordingly thus belonging to an independent category of mental illness, most likely PTSD.

Reminiscing is not a mental disorder.
We all do past 40/50.

I reminisce the late musician David Bowie who passed in 2016 at 69.
I grew up with his music in the 80s.
He s deemed the most influential glam-rock artist of the 70/80s.
His legacy will never end.
There are hundreds fan-groups dedicated to him on all social networks.

Up until his death, I had beautiful memories of his.
After his death, those memories turned into sad reminiscences.

I question myself if it is correct to make departed celebrities live eternally on this earth…
David Bowie withdrew from the public sphere long before his death in 2004 at 57.
He stated of wanting to spend his last years with his family.
He had not stopped touring since the 70s.
He gave enough, he desired some time alone.

In his last track ‘Lazarus’, he sings 

 ♪Look up here, I m in Heaven, everybody knows me now!

Could it mean: “Remember me in Heaven!”…….

R.I.P Starman


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Compensation in Autism

You can reclaim your youth anytime.

The 80s were my childhood years, how cool they were yet not being able to make the most of them: little to nothing was known of Autism/ADHD back then, at least in the school system.

But music helped me.
Although clubs and concerts could be overwhelming, I transformed my room in a state-of-the-art discotheque complete with mixer and psychedelic lights.
I’m not sure of the neighbors response, I didn’t budget on the volume still, they occasionally visited my home-studio.

I became kinda deejay celebrity in my neighborhood.

Despite my particular taste for Glam/Goth rock with David Bowie as role-model, I never refused guests’ requests and they always left happy.

I feel like going clubbing without fear now.
I may be up to something.

I’m not manic, I just want to reclaim my lost youth.

God loves me and knows when the most suitable time for me is. 

Age has lost its societal definition in the digital era.

Bowie said in one of his last interviews that the digital age has just landed, he passed in 2016 ndr… he would be 76 today and had no intention to retire.
I’m sure God wanted him badly. He s believed to have formally converted just days before dying. All his songs contain references to God.
There’s plenty of testimonies on the therapeutic properties of his music.
He was the Mozart of rock.

This whole article is to highlight the autistic ability to carve their alternative compensating spaces.

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