Finding the right support for autistics is vital. Fear can override us and stop us in our quests. 

Standpoints are supposed to serve Purposes. 

My purpose is going back home in Europe.

Purposes come not without a price: money, economy, family, are just some of the obstacles that keep us stuck.
Procrastination too  gets in the way, preventing from taking action.

Taking decisions is extremely overwhelming for autistics.
Having a Support Team is paramount. 

Reaching out for professional help isn’t easy as an expat.
I can’t give everything to my wife.
I’m tempted and terrified to do crazy things.

Hotlines can only listen.
Embassies and Churches are the only ‘support teams’ for expats.

Is God telling me something?


Just follow your heart.

Hope is a big multifaceted word: it reminisces happiness, sadness, hopelessness.

I switch in-between.

I know it can be a chemical imbalance-I have co-morbid ADHD-though it s mainly circumstantial to me: my only hope is going back to my country with my wife.
The chance is 100% economy dependent. 
Economy is very volatile these days and so my hope.

Today I’m hopeless, despite never giving up.
It’s hard to work without hope due to lack of motivation.

But I force myself, I’m determined in my goal.
Without goals, I’d let me die.

You’re never a failure when you try, keep it in mind.
New doors will open.

Nostalgia is one of the main weather related factors to me. Climate change brings me back in time. I dread doomsday. 

Monday, ‘Transition time’ .

I’m in anguish, complicit the Asian monsoon season.

The average Asian typhoon wreaks havoc 2-3 days. 
This is expected to gain energy for over a week. 
Scientists blame global warming and faster than usual rises in sea-levels. 

I’m very concerned about nature.

From now on, we’ll have hotter and longer Summers . It’ll take at least 200 years to bring the Earth as we knew it 30 years ago, even with all the carbon-emission cuts.

I believe that s the real purpose of Space Exploration: finding inhabitable spaces for humans. 
Entire coastal cities and islands are set to be submersed in 50 years, Tuvalu, Jakarta, Venice…

Anyway, I trust God will intervene, but right now, I feel hopeless.
My 30’s were the best period of life.

Time is running out. I m working hard to go home with my wife and a stable job.
She thinks I m obsessing. I think I m being realistic.

My first reaction to Panic is calling all my friends, though I often resort to hotlines.
In fact, I ‘ll call right now, skies threatening and air-moisture getting unbreathable.
Tomorrow will be better.
Apologies if I caused stress to anyone. 
I didn’t mean it.