Christmas is overwhelming for AuDHDers

Last Saturday I was looking forward to attending a concert.
I couldn’t wait… until all hell broke loose.
Just before leaving, thoughts of deadlines assailed me.
I endured a meltdown and didn’t want to ruin the performance to my wife, who went on her own, despite my disappointment.

Unsolved issues keep me from moving forward.

I can’t move when overwhelmed.
I spent two days paralyzed with an unbearable sense of guilt.

Neurotypicals can keep thoughts at bay, Autistics can’t, when triggered.
Our brains are not set to multitask.
Christmas season is the most difficult time of year for us.
Multitasking is at an all-time high, contradicting the spirit of worship and family reunion.

We transformed Christmas into a Shopping Festival.

Obsessive shopping is draining for everyone, an outpouring of adrenaline, carefully masterminded to make us spend compulsively.
Not what Jesus taught us.
I wish I could discuss this with a Priest, together with my wife.
Mental-health professionals can’t understand this feeling, since I live in a non-Christian country.

I give all my heartaches and sorrow to Jesus.
Lord, You are my Shepherd, there is nothing I shall want.