Foreign environment can help in the short term for PTSD related issues. In the long run, it can take its toll even more so in autism.

I m disheartened.

I want to leave this place. 
The desire is stronger by the day.

I m exhausted and scared.
And lonely. I feel so lonely!

I can’t do anything alone. I rely fully on my beloved wife. And my faith.
She can sense my tension.

Taking a break.

Recovered emotionally to a certain extent.

I always have Radio in the background whilst I work.
Silence causes me anguish whereas music relaxes me and makes me more productive.
Radio is also my only connection with my country.
So many memories…

I believe if one could go back in time, they will make all different decisions.

Back in the day, I thought relocating overseas would prove beneficial to me.
Well, not in Asia. Not in mid-life. 
You never really settle as an autistic expat.
We need our territory.

The more you age the more territorial you become.

For autistics, territory is very much geographical rather than roomy.
In fact, my room has become my prison since I work from home.
For now…