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The Future is Now.

Time in Christianity is the Present, yet we live in the Past and obsess over invisible things like the Future. Planning is legitimate if put in the “Yours will be done” context. There is no foreseeing the future whether you’re religious or not. It’s just a matter of escapism. Don’t build your trap. 

I’m obsessing over time again.

I feel guilty about it as a Christian, but I’m a human.

I want to go home.
I can’t concentrate.

Writing helps and doesn’t: it keeps thoughts at bay yet increases awareness.

I’m looking for the best deal, I m trapped in fear.
Should I take a break?

In fact, I don’t like the word ‘blog’, I prefer ‘journal, article, essay’.
All this Internet slang gradually destroying our mother-tongues.
I wonder what will happen to current languages in 50 years or less. 
I occasionally have difficulty understanding ‘Internet generations’.
Some say “it s the natural order of things”.
I disagree. 
Shall we divide society into decades?
I want to communicate with all age groups.

Age is just a number still, I panick about time.


 Feeling out of place.

This weekend we enter Advent Season.

I love Christmas but not in a Pagan country.

As usual, this will be the worst time of year to me.

I will argue with my wife for not going to Church.
I will argue for not being in my Christian country on the coast.
I will argue on New Year s Eve, insignificant to me.

Nothing will change until we go back to Europe.

Self-care is overwhelming, though I want to look neat.
I have to force myself in the shower. 

And thinking that shower is soothing for neurotypicals! 

Welcome to a month of hell.