Tag Archive for: OCD

Autistic Routines

Neuronal displacement is extremely debilitating. Recovery can be timely and requires a significant amount of work and dedication in autism.

Today is sweltering and water is rationed, a foreseeable common scenario for the near future as result of the ongoing global warming.

I feel displaced.
You’re already familiar with the word.

That comports a change in routine.
Bells ringing… I need to adjust.
And here come the migrant neurons into question again.

Back in the day, it was believed that once neuronal circuits were formed during gestation, they couldn’t change anymore in life.
The theory is still entertained by conservative scientists and the benchmark of autism, sadly.

How can evidence be ignored?
Mood-stabilizers and Motion-sickness’ medication are the most promising treatments in Mental Health.

All these compounds target neurons displacement.

I have taken a motion-sickness pill and am using wipes as alternative to showering.
I feel much better.
I ‘ll shower tomorrow.

It is obvious that I’m still wired to showering, though I can ‘adjust’ to temporary challenges with proper medication.

Based on my experience, I believe that brain circuits can be re-wired.

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Brain rewiring

Common symptoms of Neuronal dysfunction. 

Rewiring is a term used by Mental Health professionals to describe neuroplasticity, the ability of the brain to adapt to new environments.

OCD-Obsessive Compulsive Disorder- is a common feature of autism.

OCD is not an illness in itself but a symptom, specifically an obsession.
It never manifests individually yet hatches to underlying conditions by exacerbating them.
The sufferer is fully aware of their surroundings but unable to control their compulsions, i.e. they know that the door is locked, though they can’t refrain from repeatedly checking.

Rewiring the brain is not easy task.
Most often, sufferers have no options other than facing the challenge forcibly.
My case is very descriptive: I crave to go home despite the fear of change.

Antidepressants help to a varying degree.
Stimulants work better with underlying ADHD.

However, OCD is still treated off-label.

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Perfectionism in neurodiversity

Perfection is not humanly designed. Perfectionism is a Mental Disorder underlying other conditions, most commonly ADHD and OCD. The healthy definition of Perfectionism is “Doing the best of your ability.”

Perfectionism is a Delusion.
The human brain is not set to Perfection.
In neurotypicals, the pseudonym “perfect!” refers to “well done!”
“Well done” doesn’t mean “perfect”, it means “good job”.
“Perfect” is just a misused, lazy term.

Unfortunately, the neurodivergent take Perfection to the letter with due consequences: since humans will never achieve perfection, the struggle is real and time consuming. The quest for imaginary perfection takes its toll on Timing. 
This pattern translates Perfection to Failure.

Our society is timely. Everything happens in a Time-setting.
We can’t stop Time because we are mortals.
We can only virtually stop Age as in a  ‘time setting’, “Age is a number…”, a personal attribute, some people feel 85 at 65, others feel 20 at 65…
I feel 30 at 50, nonetheless.

Time and Age are not the same concept: Age is the Result of time, Time is the natural cycle of the planets and depending stars, what astronomers call Orbits. Technically, Time started with the Big Bang for humankind, although latest evidence suggests the existence of a pre-Universe. Anyway, let’s not get into astronomy, knowing that the Earth is 3 billions years old and the Sun has sufficient energy for the next million years, is what matters to humankind.

We can’t sacrifice time for perfection.
Knowing our abilities will keep us on time by giving our best either at work or study. Giving the best will always account for ‘Good Job’ !
Every good educator or boss will acknowledge one’s best effort regardless the score, unlike 30 years ago when only the grades counted, sadly.

I’m not saying that scores don’t count, nowadays, what I mean is that low scores generated by best practices can be implemented, they are never a failure.

One of the greatest visionary musicians of the last 50 years, David Bowie, used to rehearse one time only, no matter what, Perfection was composing a song within 3 days for him, and all his music was a success despite “not perfect”, in his own words. He was no genius, he knew his limits and abilities.

With that quote, I’ll conclude that Time is Perfection in human nature.
Don’t be late…


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Festivities in Autism

I need a reason for self-care. Without a reason, pleasurable self-care takes the place of forced hygienic labor. In short, necessity.

I need to be in the right place to celebrate or else.

Today I declined an hairdresser appointment.
I do things for a purpose only. 
Besides, I look good long haired, it s more about renewal, hence better after the  ‘commercial festivities’.

These are the most difficult days for me.
I just want to be with my wife.

Ironically, we booked the hairdresser together.
She wouldn’t cancel despite my pleas resulting in a two hours waiting for her to come home.

I feel guilty and scared.
Tomorrow is her birthday.
I bought her a present, can’t wait for tomorrow.

But today is dreadful.
I hope she’ll relax to the hairdresser who’s also her friend.
Maybe I did the right thing not to go.

Coming to my senses. We’ll go together next month and relax.

One thing at a time: tomorrow we’ll go dining out.
With neat long hair.

Matching boundaries.



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Christmas and OCD

Political instability and increasing cost of life add to Christmas stress.

Christmas and another year, in business jargon ‘dead-ends’, everything but a soothing reminder.

I hoped till the last minute to make it to Europe.

Awareness setting in. 
God is not done with me yet.
At this stage I entrust fully to Him.
There is no time for God.

My resolution from now on is stop counting days and continue to build up my travel business.

God knows when my Time is right. 

We’ll have to change hygienic habits like daily showering between others.

Body wipes are just as effective.
Candles even romantic and relaxing.

Despite the autistic reputation for hating changes in routine, it seems that Neurotypicals are having the hardest times to let go of their daily routine.

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Advent season

 Feeling out of place.

This weekend we enter Advent Season.

I love Christmas but not in a Pagan country.

As usual, this will be the worst time of year to me.

I will argue with my wife for not going to Church.
I will argue for not being in my Christian country on the coast.
I will argue on New Year s Eve, insignificant to me.

Nothing will change until we go back to Europe.

Self-care is overwhelming, though I want to look neat.
I have to force myself in the shower. 

And thinking that shower is soothing for neurotypicals! 

Welcome to a month of hell.


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